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Alex Perelson- photograph by Brian Fick
Sometimes I understand very little in life. Its as if I didn't get the 'chip' when I was hardwired. I never received the memo.I but follow the fraying threads of my fate. The older I get, the more I am adamant that I'd rather die like I am, than as an old bastard talking about how it was 'back in the day.' I don't want dependence. I don't want to wait around & have old age cripple me into a cage of four walls & pills...unable to function...no valor...no hope. Periodically, there is something terribly wrong inside of me.I'm Peter Pan with a vengeance. Sometimes my contempt is overwhelming. I stop at the store and gaze longingly at gas cans & Zippo lighters.I want to burn the night time like the day. I want to make the Gods recognize me again! I am approaching fifty & am hating it! Everyday, I hurt abysmally. My bones crack & pop. I am broken.Still, I will never conform. I refuse. I won't allow myself to give in to advancing physical decline & infirmities. It will become a 'sidearm' issue. Rather a quick bullet in the head, than a few more years as a bulging-bellied sack of apathy & excuses. Thanks to Brian Fick for the Alex Perelson image. Ahhhh....youth! Skate- Ozzie
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Comments to date: 2. Page 1 of 1. Spanky Location: points unknown | 8:51pm on Saturday, July 24th, 2010 | What a GREAT photo! Killing ourselves to live.
Keep on keepin' on. |
Shawn Santa Ana | 1:31am on Saturday, July 24th, 2010 | You feel how you feel. But I think your bud TA is an inspiration in that part of all of our experience. |
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